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The other day as I was walking home from work I “saw” you my son. You were in front of me by half a block, but I could see clearly the backpack on your back, your hoodie over your head, your slouchy jeans. I walked and watched the young boy in front of me; he got to the corner and turned going the opposite way that I would be walking. Even so I kept looking over my shoulder until he finally disappeared from view.
On another day I again “saw” you my son. I was walking the indoor track above the gym, and young teens were playing basketball below. One in particular caught my eyes, and I kept staring as I walked around and around. He had on those work out shorts you liked, his longish hair in need of a haircut falling into his eyes as he ran back and forth on the court, his cocky smile so much like yours. My hour long walk ended, and I left, watching him through the glass, feeling forlorn and sad to leave him behind.
Still another time I “saw” you my son, this time in the laughing face of your little nephew as he showed me a card trick and laughed at my amazement. His sweet face so much like yours!
There are many echoes of my son, almost 6 years after his passing. Some make me sad, others brighten my day; all remind me that although he is no longer here for me to hold and to kiss, I can still “see” him if I choose to, if I allow my heart to be open, if I continue to hold his memory close. He continues to give me moments of deep joy and also moments of deep sorrow. Intertwined experiences that I would not want to give up because they are all I have left of him. These echoes of him will have to do for now... until I am again reunited with my boy someday.
Find your own echoes; embrace them and let them carry you through!
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My name is Jan McDaniel. I speak grief. I also speak peace and healing. I started A Way for Hope blog and website to house projects I create that might help others who are grieving. The blog has expanded to include guest posts by my dear friends and fellow survivors who wanted to speak hope for others, too.
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